We live in a dilemma. A delusion anybody hardly speaks of. When it comes the time to discuss the catch in life, people back away saying, “we’re fine” however, they’re in a constant fight against the worlds. Worlds? yes, a world outside and the brutal world inside.
To accept the fact, as stated very rightly in Quran that “...this world is an enjoyment of deception” (3.185) we do it gracefully yet when the “enjoyment” arrives we humbly approach it, not realizing it as a test in disguise. We fall down the pitch- a luxurious, decorated and charming place- surrounded with much more disguises of people to read and eventually to learn a lesson rather a hard way.
What makes us judge this ‘pitch’ is our intuition .. the Nafs. That feeling one can decide matters of life in one second- the twisted anxiety one befalls and surrenders to is a teacher for a lifetime. but in the long term, when we have finally learnt a lesson- sit down calmly and think either to be a slave of your nafs or conquer it.
It is the intuition that is to be blamed. Not the people who wronged you… or the people who welcomed you, but you rejected them. Not the circumstances in which you were raised.. how you were raised.. and whom were you raised with. Not, definitely, those things you left behind or memories you didn’t cherish … It’s you who decide the voice is a fact .. or another whisper of Satan leading you astray. If you surrender to the Nafs and get angry, start crying, start gossiping or sin for any of that matter- it is you who eventually face the consequences. You’re left with a little or no memories to make let alone get a trust back.
Before blaming someone else, start with yourself- how did you end up being a jerk to those you now regard or look up to? How did the world became so fascinating all of a sudden that you forgot you created enemies within the circle of your social and private life. How come the intuition never warned and never scold you to move away and never look back? but yes, everyone isn’t perfect and not everyone learns a lesson from their mistakes, or decide for that purpose to never do it again. It’s just a matter of seconds to realize, forgive and ask forgiveness, and leave it to Allah to make things better… or keep the grudge within you for years to ruin the generation ahead.
This voice is your core of life. A steering to control yourself. It may create huge misunderstandings or manage to be strong as a mountain in times when even you can’t believe that you could endure. That is how you becomes a best teacher for yourself. The more that you feed this Nafs, the more it desires and the more you are pulled into the pitch- sooner to be unveiled as a fraud. The battle never ends, until you die.
To be best avoided and keep your intuition focused, recite the following whenever you face any situation.
There does come a time when we have to decide not to become a slave of this “nafs” and always initiate a decision of brain than the heart to achieve our focus. I’m first reminding myself and then to the readers that we are, eventually a slave of Allah SWT and not of our desires or ego. We are not answerable to anyone in the end, but to our Lord who knows every whisper of the heart. May Allah SWT make us much brave enough to discuss the shortcomings with Him only and always believe strongly that His decision is the best in our life- and not a hasty decision as ours. Ameen.